Wednesday, September 26, 2007

"If i hurt you, then i'm sorry. please don't think that this was easy."

If a friendship is capable of ending, it never existed.
So, maybe thats the problem.
It never existed.

Oh my. I feel Lazy. Haven't really been into the Period-Of-Stress yet. People are mugging & here i am thinking about the graduation day & prom night. haha! I've finally found a suitable study environment for me, & i hope it will help :D
Me: Mum, my MP3 and my phone went maddddddddddddddddd.
Mum: Isn't that good? you'll have no distractions now.
Me: Oh really? why not knock out our televisions and computer too?
Help! i seriously have no Discipline, not at all.
Are there any Time Management/Discipline/Ways to cope with Laziness Courses?


Friday, September 21, 2007

"I never said I was anything, so don't expect me to be."

The bunch of people who i'm going to spend the rest of my school life with(:

Prelims are over. Most of the results were out. C-M-I i should say.
Three days for me to rest, Two days for me to think & One day for me to sob at my results. Then my Battle begins :D
I'll strive for the day, for the day that they'll announce my name ( thinking way too much) haha.

Prom night's at Traders hotel.
Omfg. i can't waittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!

Sunday, September 16, 2007

It just seemed so real.
Those Eyes Of Hatred. totally freaked me out!
Don't hate me,
I'll prolly Die!
"That first gentle peck & a whisper of I Love You, I'll never forget"

Oh i miss the iceeeeeeeeeeee
My world revolves around the books. my mind's whirling with Gorby's, Mao's & Chemisty facts still. oh my dear physics is coming back. i'd gone madddddddddddddddddddddd
anyhow, i have the Weirdest dreams these days and i dont like them. i don't like it waking up with puffy eyes due to too much of crying.
I'd read this somewhere:
First Love is the first relationship or attraction of a romantic nature experienced in adolescence. Memories of first love are mostly fond ones but in certain cases, the memories could be highly painful also. Those who had experienced feelings of happiness, enthusiasm, excitement, and pride in their first love are much more likely to have stable, enduring relationships in their later lives. On the other hand, those who went through feelings of shame, guilt, hostility or fright during their first love tend to have weak relationships with others. (Means i'll tend to have a weak relationship w others? How not fair!)
Even though it is true that we could fall in love any number of times in our life, the memories of first love would always remain fresh and occupy a special place in our hearts. Hence, the first love tends to have a much greater effect on our lives, whether we admit it or not. It is very difficult to be prepared for first love because it is a sudden experience. The emotional experiences that go with first love are very strong. We have to learn to understand them, sort them out and control them. Feelings of passion, elation, sincerity, anxiety, fear all come in a mixed fashion. If the first love ends on a happy note, then it poses no further problems. On the other hand, if the first love fails for any reason, the legacy that it leaves behind could be painful. We have to learn our lessons from that to have much healthier relationships in our later part of life.
"B" if you don't know, i really miss you so.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

"I have fallen so in love with you, so much more than I ever said I would."

i'll not dwell on the past anymore, never again.

One day, I just realized that you are gone for good - and it's okay. actually, i'm glad that you did. i'm coping better than i thought i could. i used to love you, but no longer now. you've changed, and me too. i'm no longer that little girl who'd do anything for your smile. i've never thought i will fall in love ever again, but i did. & i have fallen so in love with him, so much more than i ever thought i would.

Hey Jerk, your existance/non-existance does not affect me anymore. thanks for the quarrel, you made me realise how much i hate you.
(i feel so much better. thank you people, i'm fine now :D )

Saturday, September 1, 2007

"I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you."

Thank you Huina, Huijing, Manda, Yan Ee & Win for today.

Lunch was fine, Hair Spray was fine, Dinner was fine, Things went fine.
i'm just tired & i can hardly catch my breath.
i'll just crumble when night falls again.